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Sunday, May 29, 2005

Mass

Mass was great today. I dunno, the priest put things in perspective. God only asks that we come together on Sunday to worhip him for ONE hour...thats not much...I've played games for 3 hours....I've watched movies up to 4 hours...I've chatted up to 5 hours....why can't I worship a GREAT God for ONE hour?
Also, I was thinking it in this way (I think what Im about to say is gonna sound so calculative, but still, I blame it on the accounting paper Im taking) You see, worshipping God is a great investment. He loves you, is all merciful, all loving, all knowing, always listening, always there, always protecting, always calling you, yes...Y O U...a mortal being....and who is HE? HE is God....what does He ask of you?
Your love...yes....thats it. Ever watched someone try so hard to impress a human being? Example, a guy after a girl. He tries so hard to impress her, to be good with her friends, to wear nice stuff, to look good, smell good, sound intelligent...is it ever a guarantee that she will like him? Nope...I say best chances...50%. Either she likes him, or she doesnt. Are her affections for him guaranteed? Nope....I'd say 50% too....it may just be a matter of time before she grows bored, or falls for a better guy. See the comparison? Hehe...kinda stupid actually...comparing God with a woman...but still...the point isnt the comparison..the point is what God offers you...


O yea...this is gonna be last post till my exams are over. My first paper is on the 11th, then on the 15th, then 21st, then 23rd of June. Why did I list down the dates? Cos you can pray for me. Yes please!

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Sunset

Sunset



Got this pic from my working in Motuihe Island. Really....what do people think of when they see a sunset?

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Married

for 60 years. Thats what the parish priest celebrated today in mass for a couple. I didnt get to see them in the crowd. But I just pondered what it'd be like to be with someone longer than Malaysia acheived independance. You'd probably know EVERYTHING about that person. What she'd like to eat given a choice of food, where'd she wanna go, what she's most likely to do next, what she'd say when she's stressed out, what she'd say when she's happy....but can you imagine, the anniversaries? They'd each have to have thought of 60 different ways to celebrate their being together. Well, truth be told, it's not about the gifts they're getting on that day I spose, rather the fact that they're together. 60....thats a looooooooong time

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Revenge of The Sith

This 3rd instalment was good...much better than the last 2. What shall I say about it? It shows that powerful people tend to be more reckless, and let their emotions get in the way of their judgment. (But then again, many people do the same thing) The theme in here again? Love, and the fight between good and evil. Someone who has good, but for the love of his wife feared her death. And for that, he was willing to do anything to save her. His emotions clouded his judgements, hence he couldnt tell that he was manipulated, brainwashed and used. Something about the Jedi order which I must comment on though (man, I feel so geeky now). They're not very compassionate people. Obi Wan could have saved Anakin after defeating him (Anakin already lost his saber AND other arm). If Obi Wan really thought of Anakin as his brother, he'd have saved him from the lava, maybe after that, Anakin would have come to his senses. Now that you've seen the whole story, you really feel sorry for this guy we call Darth Vader. Born a slave with no father, couldnt return to see his dying mother, joined an order he dreamed to be a member of since young only to know that Jedi's cant marry so he has to do it hush hush, thinks his wife will die at childbirth, gets manipulated by the emperor, loses an arm to a Sith lord, loses another arm to a Jedi, gets burnt by lava and then loses his wife not knowing until a long time on that he has children. SAD

Friday, May 20, 2005

I am

sick
homesick
confused
nonchalant
zombiefied

Friday, May 13, 2005

Pentecost Sunday

A feast of the universal Church which commemorates the Descent of the Holy Ghost upon the Apostles, fifty days after the Resurrection of Christ, on the ancient Jewish festival called the "feast of weeks" or Pentecost (Exodus 34:22; Deuteronomy 16:10)
I'll admit now, the ONLY time I think of God is before I drive (praying for a safe journey), and occasionally before I sleep, and on Sundays, and when I go for reconciliation. Most of the time, I think about deadlines, assignments, research, books to return, borrow, my car needing tweaking and fixing, bank statements, rate bills, my brother, etc....I suppose thats why I try to get invovled in my church activities, cos during then, Im GUARANTEED to contemplate or reflect on God's presence (even if I have a lapse in concentration). Recently, I've been so bogged down with assignments and deadlines, my stress and caffeine levels in my body shot up faster than you can say 'BOO!'. I found it weird that it was during this time that I actually thought of God a LITTLE bit more, e.g praying before I did my studying...but it wasnt until I went for my prayer meeting an hour ago that someone read this email to me, sent as a reflection for Pentecost Sunday.

John 20:19-23
The disciples locked themselves in their own little space. They were afraid of the Jews. We lock ourselves in our little closets for fear of the world around us, be it our job, people who bother us, homework and tests to be written, jobs to be worked, bills to be paid, controversies with the family and friends to resolve, ourselves to face, etc. Jesus shows up there anyway. Jesus shows up for us too. He said, "Peace be with you" to them. He says "Peace be with you" to us. He breathed the Holy Spirit into them, and He still breathes the Holy Spirit into us today. And he sends us out, just as he sent them out. The part I mostly appreciate is the "Peace be with you". It seems that whenever I'm truly at peace only when I give it all to God and get out of His way in my life. So many time, I've tried to do things on my own. So many times, I've failed. Too few times I actually really and truly give over a situation to God. And in every one of those times, things always turn out so well (not always like I had thought the options were, but usually better!) I've also learned that in giving things over to God, I dont have to lock myself in my little room anymore. The Holy Spirit is with me in a real way, working through my willingness to let him work through me, and so nothing else can get to me, and so I'm at peace and it is very good. Happy Pentecost everyone! May the Spirit of peace be with you always as you place your trust in Him!

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

My Home

I guess I've always fantasized about the house I live in when Im on my own. (O, btw, did I mention one of my fantasies came true? I was let into a cakehouse/bakery when it was closed and I got to choose, not ONE but TWO cakes of my choice for free!!! :P Sigh.....I'll rememeber that day) ANYWAY....yea...my house
I guess Im not into a huge house. But I'd love to have it overlooking the sea. I'd like to be able to see it from the top, outside my balcony. On that balcony, I'll have a nice coffee table, where I'll be able to enjoy a nice cup of Joe while watching the sun set or rise...or both...heh
I did think about having a pool, but I guess what I'd really really want is a nice spa in my backyard. Surrounding my spa pool would be a one of those Japanese gardens...nothing too fancy, just a little hideaway from the outside world.
Next comes a study. My private room, and I'd have my collection of certain Time magazines framed (Heh...so far I've only got 2, but its a start) I'll have shelves and shelves of books, something like my miniature library. I don't think I'll have a PC in this room.
Then I'd probably want a nice entertainment room. I always wanted a huge flat screen TV...or maybe I'll have a projector...sigh..I dunno....who knows what they'll come up with a decade from now? I'll definitely have a lazyboy...ahh....lazy............connected to this room will probably be a pool room...where I can practise without people laughing at me....:P
SO many things to think of..im not done yet, but my dinner is...I might continue later...

Monday, May 09, 2005

Death

is what I thought of last night. It came without warning. Before I continue, I must request that readers not relate this to the previous post...hehe...I can assure I am not in any sort of depression, if anything, Im quite content with the way things are. So...getting on with my point
There I was, lying down on my bed on a Sunday night, moments before I my slumber, I realised that one day, I'd be lying down on a bed, decades older (hopefully) and closer to death. And I realised even by then, I'd still remember certain important things which I rememeber from my childhood years, to my teenage years, and to my transition into adulthood. The things said to me, the experiences I had, they'd be specifically ONLY be that sequence in MY mind. And it was also at this moment, I would realise, what I say, or did to certain people, would be with them to the day they die. Im not assuming people WILL remember me, rather, there is a CHANCE that certain things I did or said would be flashing in their minds. And it was then I realised, that it is important how you carry yourself. How some people are watching you and how at any moment, you could make an impact on someone to the day they die, and even after their transition to their afterlife! Can you imagine? YOU COULD be remembered by someone for eternity! (Cos thats how long your soul will last) This has completely changed my perspective on ...many things....

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Ever felt like crying sometimes but something in you just forces you not to? Who said you'd feel better after crying? Do people feel dissapointed in themselves after crying? For displaying weakness? Even in private? Do people feel prouder for not crying? For being able to hold back? For being able to say, "There, I did it. The pain inside has subsided slowly, much slower than it would have subsided had I cried, but by doing this, I believe Im stronger for it"
Dunno. When all my sad thoughts are jumbled up into one hunk of mass, it just keeps growing and growing, feeding on all the past dissapointments, hurt, pain, embarrasment, anger, loneliness, and inability to do anything, I do feel like crying. But its not because at that moment I can't control all those bad thoughts, rather its cause I find it so difficult to bring up the happier moments of joy, laughter, and acheivement to balance out those thoughts. As if my mind is only a storage box of pain. Where is my trove of happiness? Im sure its there, maybe I have yet to find the key.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Evolution?

Upon reading the article, I decided to see the Catholic church's stand on evolution.
The article Im putting up is from
http://www.catholic.com/library/Adam_Eve_and_Evolution.asp

Adam, Eve, and Evolution

The controversy surrounding evolution touches on our most central beliefs about ourselves and the world. Evolutionary theories have been used to answer questions about the origins of the universe, life, and man. These may be referred to as cosmological evolution, biological evolution, and human evolution. One’s opinion concerning one of these areas does not dictate what one believes concerning others.

People usually take three basic positions on the origins of the cosmos, life, and man: (1) special or instantaneous creation, (2) developmental creation or theistic evolution, (3) and atheistic evolution. The first holds that a given thing did not develop, but was instantaneously and directly created by God. The second position holds that a given thing did develop from a previous state or form, but that this process was under God’s guidance. The third position claims that a thing developed due to random forces alone.
Related to the question of how the universe, life, and man arose is the question of when they arose. Those who attribute the origin of all three to special creation often hold that they arose at about the same time, perhaps six thousand to ten thousand years ago. Those who attribute all three to atheistic evolution have a much longer time scale. They generally hold the universe to be ten billion to twenty billion years old, life on earth to be about four billion years old, and modern man (the subspecies homo sapiens) to be about thirty thousand years old. Those who believe in varieties of developmental creation hold dates used by either or both of the other two positions.

The Catholic Position

What is the Catholic position concerning belief or unbelief in evolution? The question may never be finally settled, but there are definite parameters to what is acceptable Catholic belief.
Concerning cosmological evolution, the Church has infallibly defined that the universe was specially created out of nothing. Vatican I solemnly defined that everyone must "confess the world and all things which are contained in it, both spiritual and material, as regards their whole substance, have been produced by God from nothing" (Canons on God the Creator of All Things, canon 5).
The Church does not have an official position on whether the stars, nebulae, and planets we see today were created at that time or whether they developed over time (for example, in the aftermath of the Big Bang that modern cosmologists discuss). However, the Church would maintain that, if the stars and planets did develop over time, this still ultimately must be attributed to God and his plan, for Scripture records: "By the word of the Lord the heavens were made, and all their host [stars, nebulae, planets] by the breath of his mouth" (Ps. 33:6).
Concerning biological evolution, the Church does not have an official position on whether various life forms developed over the course of time. However, it says that, if they did develop, then they did so under the impetus and guidance of God, and their ultimate creation must be ascribed to him.
Concerning human evolution, the Church has a more definite teaching. It allows for the possibility that man’s body developed from previous biological forms, under God’s guidance, but it insists on the special creation of his soul. Pope Pius XII declared that "the teaching authority of the Church does not forbid that, in conformity with the present state of human sciences and sacred theology, research and discussions . . . take place with regard to the doctrine of evolution, in as far as it inquires into the origin of the human body as coming from pre-existent and living matter—[but] the Catholic faith obliges us to hold that souls are immediately created by God" (Pius XII, Humani Generis 36). So whether the human body was specially created or developed, we are required to hold as a matter of Catholic faith that the human soul is specially created; it did not evolve, and it is not inherited from our parents, as our bodies are.
While the Church permits belief in either special creation or developmental creation on certain questions, it in no circumstances permits belief in atheistic evolution.

The Time Question

Much less has been defined as to when the universe, life, and man appeared. The Church has infallibly determined that the universe is of finite age—that it has not existed from all eternity—but it has not infallibly defined whether the world was created only a few thousand years ago or whether it was created several billion years ago.
Catholics should weigh the evidence for the universe’s age by examining biblical and scientific evidence. "Though faith is above reason, there can never be any real discrepancy between faith and reason. Since the same God who reveals mysteries and infuses faith has bestowed the light of reason on the human mind, God cannot deny himself, nor can truth ever contradict truth" (Catechism of the Catholic Church 159)
The contribution made by the physical sciences to examining these questions is stressed by the Catechism, which states, "The question about the origins of the world and of man has been the object of many scientific studies which have splendidly enriched our knowledge of the age and dimensions of the cosmos, the development of life-forms and the appearance of man. These discoveries invite us to even greater admiration for the greatness of the Creator, prompting us to give him thanks for all his works and for the understanding and wisdom he gives to scholars and researchers" (CCC 283).
It is outside the scope of this tract to look at the scientific evidence, but a few words need to be said about the interpretation of Genesis and its six days of creation. While there are many interpretations of these six days, they can be grouped into two basic methods of reading the account—a chronological reading and a topical reading.

Chronological Reading

According to the chronological reading, the six days of creation should be understood to have followed each other in strict chronological order. This view is often coupled with the claim that the six days were standard 24-hour days.
Some have denied that they were standard days on the basis that the Hebrew word used in this passage for day (yom) can sometimes mean a longer-than-24-hour period (as it does in Genesis 2:4). However, it seems clear that Genesis 1 presents the days to us as standard days. At the end of each one is a formula like, "And there was evening and there was morning, one day" (Gen. 1:5). Evening and morning are, of course, the transition points between day and night (this is the meaning of the Hebrew terms here), but periods of time longer than 24 hours are not composed of a day and a night. Genesis is presenting these days to us as 24-hour, solar days. If we are not meant to understand them as 24-hour days, it would most likely be because Genesis 1 is not meant to be understood as a literal chronological account.
That is a possibility. Pope Pius XII warned us, "What is the literal sense of a passage is not always as obvious in the speeches and writings of the ancient authors of the East, as it is in the works of our own time. For what they wished to express is not to be determined by the rules of grammar and philology alone, nor solely by the context; the interpreter must, as it were, go back wholly in spirit to those remote centuries of the East and with the aid of history, archaeology, ethnology, and other sciences, accurately determine what modes of writing, so to speak, the authors of that ancient period would be likely to use, and in fact did use. For the ancient peoples of the East, in order to express their ideas, did not always employ those forms or kinds of speech which we use today; but rather those used by the men of their times and countries. What those exactly were the commentator cannot determine as it were in advance, but only after a careful examination of the ancient literature of the East" (Divino Afflante Spiritu 35–36).

The Topical Reading

This leads us to the possiblity that Genesis 1 is to be given a non-chronological, topical reading. Advocates of this view point out that, in ancient literature, it was common to sequence historical material by topic, rather than in strict chronological order.
The argument for a topical ordering notes that at the time the world was created, it had two problems—it was "formless and empty" (1:2). In the first three days of creation, God solves the formlessness problem by structuring different aspects of the environment.
On day one he separates day from night; on day two he separates the waters below (oceans) from the waters above (clouds), with the sky in between; and on day three he separates the waters below from each other, creating dry land. Thus the world has been given form.
But it is still empty, so on the second three days God solves the world’s emptiness problem by giving occupants to each of the three realms he ordered on the previous three days. Thus, having solved the problems of formlessness and emptiness, the task he set for himself, God’s work is complete and he rests on the seventh day.

Real History

The argument is that all of this is real history, it is simply ordered topically rather than chronologically, and the ancient audience of Genesis, it is argued, would have understood it as such.
Even if Genesis 1 records God’s work in a topical fashion, it still records God’s work—things God really did.
The Catechism explains that "Scripture presents the work of the Creator symbolically as a succession of six days of divine ‘work,’ concluded by the ‘rest’ of the seventh day" (CCC 337), but "nothing exists that does not owe its existence to God the Creator. The world began when God’s word drew it out of nothingness; all existent beings, all of nature, and all human history is rooted in this primordial event, the very genesis by which the world was constituted and time begun" (CCC 338)
It is impossible to dismiss the events of Genesis 1 as a mere legend. They are accounts of real history, even if they are told in a style of historical writing that Westerners do not typically use.

Adam and Eve: Real People

It is equally impermissible to dismiss the story of Adam and Eve and the fall (Gen. 2–3) as a fiction. A question often raised in this context is whether the human race descended from an original pair of two human beings (a teaching known as monogenism) or a pool of early human couples (a teaching known as polygenism).
In this regard, Pope Pius XII stated: "When, however, there is question of another conjectural opinion, namely polygenism, the children of the Church by no means enjoy such liberty. For the faithful cannot embrace that opinion which maintains either that after Adam there existed on this earth true men who did not take their origin through natural generation from him as from the first parents of all, or that Adam represents a certain number of first parents. Now, it is in no way apparent how such an opinion can be reconciled that which the sources of revealed truth and the documents of the teaching authority of the Church proposed with regard to original sin which proceeds from a sin actually committed by an individual Adam in which through generation is passed onto all and is in everyone as his own" (Humani Generis 37).
The story of the creation and fall of man is a true one, even if not written entirely according to modern literary techniques. The Catechism states, "The account of the fall in Genesis 3 uses figurative language, but affirms a primeval event, a deed that took place at the beginning of the history of man. Revelation gives us the certainty of faith that the whole of human history is marked by the original fault freely committed by our first parents" (CCC 390).

Science and Religion

The Catholic Church has always taught that "no real disagreement can exist between the theologian and the scientist provided each keeps within his own limits. . . . If nevertheless there is a disagreement . . . it should be remembered that the sacred writers, or more truly ‘the Spirit of God who spoke through them, did not wish to teach men such truths (as the inner structure of visible objects) which do not help anyone to salvation’; and that, for this reason, rather than trying to provide a scientific exposition of nature, they sometimes describe and treat these matters either in a somewhat figurative language or as the common manner of speech those times required, and indeed still requires nowadays in everyday life, even amongst most learned people" (Leo XIII, Providentissimus Deus 18).
As the Catechism puts it, "Methodical research in all branches of knowledge, provided it is carried out in a truly scientific manner and does not override moral laws, can never conflict with the faith, because the things of the world and the things the of the faith derive from the same God. The humble and persevering investigator of the secrets of nature is being led, as it were, by the hand of God in spite of himself, for it is God, the conserver of all things, who made them what they are" (CCC 159). The Catholic Church has no fear of science or scientific discovery.

Earth Created in 7 days?

I found it from here.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/7013405/
"The stirring on the mount
St. Helens used in drive to prove biblical creation with science"
In the beginning ...
Anderson and his wife, Doris, are the founders of the Mount St. Helens Creation Information Center and curators of the 7 Wonders Creation Museum. They represent a third wave of modern biblical creationist thinking, one that says hard-core science proves the Genesis account of creation.

Mainstream scientists say that because it can sound plausible to non-specialists, it could be a particularly formidable threat to public acceptance of Darwinian evolution as it has been taught for more than a century, which Americans already reject by a ratio of almost 2-to-1, an NBC News poll found in March.

But that still didn’t explain where the Earth came from in the first place. The delicate balance of climatic, geologic and physical conditions that led to life on Earth couldn’t have happened by chance, they said. It all had to be set in motion by a greater intelligence.

Adherents of what is called intelligent design are careful not to speak of “creationism” as it is popularly understood, weary of the Bible-thumping stereotype the word calls up and aware that the Supreme Court has barred teaching the concept in the public schools. So religious legislators and school board members around the country have latched onto intelligent design as a palatable vehicle for undermining evolution in the curriculum.

Most attention has focused on votes to require the teaching of intelligent design in Dover, Pa., and in Cobb County, Ga. Both initiatives have been challenged in court, but similar campaigns are under way in at least 15 other states.

A biblical analysis of hard data
If biblical creationism and intelligent design are at opposite poles of the anti-evolution argument, then Lloyd Anderson and a small number of others like him, popularizing the hypotheses of geologist Steven A. Austin and physicist D. Russell Humphreys, are the vanguard of a modern-day campaign to split the difference.

In the early part of the 20th century, believers in biblical creation rested their assurance purely on the Bible. It says God created the heavens and the Earth in six days, so it must be so. Nearly half of Americans, 44 percent, still believe that, the poll found.

After retreating from serious public engagement following the debacle of the prosecution of Tennessee science teacher John Scopes in 1925, some religious thinkers posited that the data did indeed support the standard reading of the geologic and biological record. Evolution could be correct, they said.

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Self Discovery

Lately, I've started caring less and less about the small things. Honestly, maybe Im learning to realise that I really cant fix everything. When you know too much, you care too much, and when you care too much, you worry too much, and when you worry too much, you try too hard, and when you try too hard, you expect too much. And what happens after that? You get dissapointed.
Before, I tried too hard to know too little. You can't force the relevation of information unto yourself. After accepting you dont know much, you begin to start accepting the fact that its nice to know nothing at all (of course this applies to thigs you realise you shouldnt care about) I didnt think I'd say this, but ignorance, IN CERTAIN matters, IS bliss.